Atheno (Part 1)

By: Drew I’m here sitting on my reclining chair with wine on my hand after a good early dinner. I finished working early, so I invited m...

By: Drew

I’m here sitting on my reclining chair with wine on my hand after a good early dinner. I finished working early, so I invited my friends to go out and eat. My life was and still and roller coaster. After years of not updating my stories, I guess I’m ready now. Grabbed my laptop and start writing again.

I’m the author of the two part story “Pagbibinata (Down South)” that was published January 10,2014 and August 10,2014. Life get busy at that point kaya di ko na nasundan ang kwento ko.

Continuation

Doctor prescribed me an antibiotic to take for 2weeks to treat my gonorrhea. I was skeptical for 3months if I’m really positive.. I mean HIV positive. The day finally came for me to do the test. I texted both of my sisters to pray for me. They don’t have a clue kung ano ang ipagdarasal nila, but I asked them to pray for me still. I’m kinda confident that I’m negative but the thoughts of I might be positive kills me. I prayed for strength for me to accept the result just in case, just in case I’m HIV positive. The waits seems forever then I was called to private room with my councilor.

“Hi Andrew!” greeting me to start a conversation.

“Hi Raul!” I greeted him back. I just read his name on his name tag.

He encourage me to have a sit. And I heard the most wonderful words from his mouth after 3 long months of waiting.

“You’re NEGATIVE!” bungad ni Raul.

Di ko alam kung anong mararamdaman ko, I’m happy, I’m relieved. None re-active ang result ko. Raul and I talked about the risk of acquiring HIV and how to prevent it. Normal procedure ng counseling. I spent months of educating my self about HIV and planned to become a counselor. After ng break-up namin ni Jeff, medyo umiwas na rin ako sa relationship. I still hooked up once in a while. Play safe. I still have this gay/BI clan. Life seems normal.

Until I went to this Saturday GEB (Grand Eye Ball), its normal back then for text clan to have it at least once a month. Its started fine and normal, pretty much sight seeing ng mga ‘’PWEDE” at more of chatting to my close friends. Then this one group from one barangay arrived. Medyo maingay, maraming “effem”. I’m not against them but some of them are just too much. It always have someone in the group that standout and we all knows that. Si Atheno, matangkad, maganda ang hubog ng katawan, at gwapo. Ang pinakagusto kong traits nia is tahimik. Nangiti-ngiti lang.. mysterious..

Jusme, eto na naman ako. Though I’m trying not to stare at him but I always caught my self staring anyway. Napansin ng tropa nia na tingin ako ng tingin. Medyo lasing na rin ata ako. Lumapit na ako at nag pakilala. He noticed me walking towards him, I handed my hand

“ Drew”, maiksi kong pagpapakilala.

“Atheno brad.” then he shook my hand.

Hay naku, turn off.. ayoko ng brad na tawagan, soooo hypocrite. I tried to chat with him for a while get his number since I realized that I don’t have his number yet. I tried to take it easy this time.Text him once in a while, see him once in a while. No rush, sabi ko sa sarili ko. We go out for dinner. Have some drinks. He go on his way after, I go with mine.We been dating for like 3 months. Walang nangyayari sa amin. I swear. But sure I hooked-up still once I while.

One Saturday night, I invited him to a friend’s event. Simpleng party. Some food, some drinks and videoke with rooms for people that might passed-out. Party started, I sat beside him through out the night. Then he said that he’s getting tipsy.. next thing I know he’s ready to lay down. We excused ourselves to the rest of people in the party. Little that I know that its already 3am. Went to one of my friends guest room and lay down. I’m not a saint, I locked the door. So obliviously, HOPIA ako. Haha.

We chatted for a while hangang sa yumakap sia sa akin.. nasa ganun kameng posisyon ng mga 3-5minuto na parang 1 oras na para sa akin. Kala ko tulog na ng bigla siang tumingala, hindi ko na pigilan. Wala naman akong balak na pakasalanan muna sia bago galawin. I’m just asking my self if its really the right time for us to do this.. Hinalikan ko sia, marahan.. ang amoy ng sigarilyo at alak na galing sa hinga nia ang nagpataas ng libido ng aking katawan, naging marahas ang bawat halik ko, ginagantihan nia naman eto.

Sinimulan ko na syang hubaran. Bahala na. Para kaming nasayaw na nasa ritmo, alam na alam namin ang gagawin ng isa’t isa. Madilim at mainit ang kwarto. Ang sunod na naming namalayan ay hubad na kaming dalawa na parehas naliligo sa magkahalo naming pawis at laway. Para kaming hayok na hayok sa laman. Nililiguan nia ako ng halik, ako din naman sa kanya. Pinahiga ko sia at sinimulang romansahin, simula sa leeg, dibdib, ang mapula niang utong na ang sarap susuhin.. wala akong narinig na pagpoprotesta maliban sa bawat ungol nia

“F*ck, Drew, don’t stop.. ohh.. please,.. yeah.. bite that nipple.”

Lalo akong nangigil sa kanya. Dinilaan ko ang buong katawan nia hangang sa maparating ako sa 6 na pulgada niang hinaharap.. nasa kamay ko na to, makalipas ang ilang buwang pagtitimpe. Agad kung sinungaban ang tayo niang titi na nagbigay sa kanya ng dahilan para gumawa pa ng mas malakas na ingay.

“Ohh Drew, sige pa.. chupain mo ko..f*ck..”

Di sya nakuntento sa ginagawa ko. Tinulak nia ako sa kama, at sumampa ng nakabaliktad, magsi69 kame. Agad niang sinubo sa akin ang tigas niang titi. Sinubo nia naman ang titi ko na kanina pang tigas na tigas. Mina-Mouth f*ck nia ako, di ako makahinga.. naduduwal ako,..naluluha.. pero wala na akong magawa, tuluyan na siang kinain ng libog nia at bumilis ng bumils ang pagbayo nia sa bibig ko.

“Lalabasan na ako, Drew! F*ck… ahgggghhhhh! Ayan na ako…”

Kasunod nun ay sunod sunod na sirit ng katas niya ang pumuno sa bibig ko. Nalunok ko na ang iba sa twing hihinga ako. Tuluyan ng lumambot ang titi nia sa bibig ko at niluwa ko na to. Agad akong pumunta sa CR at nagmomog. Nakahiga pa rin sia sa kama ng pagbalik ko, medyo hingal pa.

“Sorry kung medyo naging marahas ako” paumanhin nia.

“Its fine.” maiksi kong sagot.

Medyo awkward ang ambiance ng room. Tahimik. Di ako satisfied pero pwede na. Natulog kameng magkayakap.

Lumipas ang mga araw, di ko pa rin alam kung saan ilulugar ang sarili ko. Wala pa rin kameng formal arrangement na mag-on na kame. Good things happens for those who wait, pagkokombinse ko sa sarili ko. Mas madalang na rin syang magtext at mangamusta, after all that I’ve been through.. I’m sure I can manage another break-up. It just sad that, our love story might end… before it actually started.