Akhi Ryu Go Whispers Through The Wind Pagpasok ko sa kwarto ni Gab I saw him lying in bed at nanginginig. I hurried towards him at hin...
Akhi Ryu Go
Whispers Through The Wind
Pagpasok ko sa kwarto ni Gab I saw him lying in bed at nanginginig. I hurried towards him at hinawakan ang noo nya.
Akhi: Mataas nga ang lagnat nya.
Then nakita ko yung batyang may towel and some meds at the desk just beside his bed.
Akhi: Napainom na siguro sya ng gamot ni Audrey.
I sighed of relief. Tiningnan ko si Gab. Then I felt a piercing pain in my heart. I really want to embrace him but I can't do that. Tulog na tulog sya pero nanginginig sya. Then he started talking in his sleep.
Gab: A... Akhi... Why?... How can you do this to me?...
Then I saw tears run down from his eyes habang nakapikit sya. I cried myself and then held his right hand.
Akhi: I'm sorry Gab.
I kissed it. Tiningnan ko ito at nakita kong medyo namamaga at may pasa pasa at may natuyong dugo. Hindi siguro nakita ni Audrey. Dali dali kong pinunasan ang luha ko at naghanap ng first aid kit in the house. When I found one bumalik ako sa kwarto to mend his wounds. Nilinisan ko yung sugat both hands and then nilagyan ko ng benda. He didn't wake up dahil siguro sa sobrang pagod at taas ng lagnat nya. I figured he would be hungry when he wakes up so I called Harold and asked him to buy us some food since wala sa kanila ni Rocel ang marunong magluto. I could go out and buy myself but I didn't want to leave Gab's side. Maya maya pa dumating si Harold at kumatok.
Harold: Tao po? Akhi?
I went down to pick up the food.
Akhi: Thanks Harold. Would you like to come in muna?
Harold: *sigh* I'd like to, but Gab and I are still in bad terms so I guess I'll just take my leave.
Akhi: Okay.
Harold: Just do me a favor Akhi.
Akhi: Ano yun?
Harold: Please take care of Gab until he recovers.
Akhi: Sure.
Harold: Well I'm off now. Bye.
Akhi: Bye.
Itinabi ko na muna yung mga pagkain para pag gising ni Gab may kakainin sya. Bumalik ako sa kwarto and I took a chair at umupo ako beside the bed facing him. Hinawakan ko ulit ang kamay nya at hinintay ko na magising sya pero pati ako ay nakatulog narin with my head rested beside his abdomen. While I was sleeping nagising si Gab and he saw me. Tiningnan nya lang ako. He looked so sad. He remembered everything that he saw at the restaurant at ang mga sumunod na nangyari. he rested his head back on the pillow with his eyes shut tightly. Umiyak syang muli and just went back to sleep. Hours have passed and it was almost 7 pm. I woke up at nakita ko si Gab clutching his head. He's already awake.
Akhi: Gab what's wrong? Is your head hurting?
Gab: No. *his voice is hoarse as if he's been crying* I just feel dizzy.
Naramdaman ko sa boses nya na nahihirapan syang kausapin ako.
Akhi: Do you want to eat something?
Gab: I think so.
Akhi: Sige Gab. I'll just go and get some food.
I stood up and walked towards the door then I paused for a moment. Tumulo nanaman ang luha ko. I wiped it quickly then headed outside. He took his phone out and then pinagmasdan lang nya yung pictures namin together. He sighed while crying and then he deleted the folder containing it along with all our pictures together. He closed his eyes trying hard to forget the pain in his heart but he just couldn't.
Ininit kong muli yung mga pagkain and then brought it back with me to the room. Sinubuan ko sya until he finishes up his food. Pagtapos nya, itanabi ko muna yung tray at umupo lang doon.
Gab: Where's Audrey?
Akhi: Umuwi na sya. She called me this morning. Nagpunta sya dito para alagaan ka but she's got a lot of things to do back at home kaya tinawagan nya ako.
Gab: *sigh* I see...
Akhi: I'm surprised she called but I thank her for doing so.
Gab: She knows she can't call anybody from home not even my yaya.
Hindi ko alam pero hindi ko talaga mapigilan ang luha ko. Kahit nag uusap kami ng normal tulo parin ng tulo. Tumingin si Gab sa akin at nakita nya yon. Nalukot ang mukha nya as if he's trying hard to stop his own tears. He took a deep breath then stared at the ceiling.
Akhi: So um... *sniff* do you wanna talk?
Gab: *sigh* There's nothing left to talk about Akhi.
Akhi: How about us?
Gab: Akhi there's no more "us". I broke up with you. There's nothing more to say. I don't wanna remember that painful scene so please let's just drop it.
Akhi: *hoarse voice* Uhumm. *sniff* I guess no matter what I say, no matter what explanation I have, hindi mo na po tatanggapin.
Gab: *sigh* stop it Akhi. Wag ka mag paawa. It hurts for both of us. I maybe angry but I still don't wanna see you like that.
I took a deep breath, wiped my tears and tried my best to stop my tears. If it hurts him to see me like this then I'm gonna try hard to look okay. My hands are just rested on my knees as I look down. He looks at me and he cried silently. After a while I gave him his meds at pinainom ko sya. He went back to sleep at binantayan ko lang sya. Doon narin ako nakatulog kasama sya kagaya ng posisyon ko kanina. Sapat na sakin ang makita sya, makasama sya at maalagaan sya...
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*Kinabukasan at our apartment*
Rocel is at the phone and so is Cherry.
Cherry: *over the phone* So can you handle that? Dapat masarap na masarap yung mga food ha?
Alyssa: Oh sure! Ako pa? Hindi ito ang first time na nag cater kami no.
Cherry: Okay aasahan ko yan. I hope walang male-late sa inyo ni Celine din for the party mamaya kase it's gonna be a surprise.
Alyssa: For sure ateng. Asahan mo yan!
Cherry: Okay thanks again. Bye sis!
Alyssa: Vye!
Rocel: *over the phone* I want it delivered before lunch okay? Please make sure you deliver it on time.
Then she hung up.
Rocel: Okay, cake's settled.
Cherry: Food will be ready by then.
Rocel: Okay. Teka lang, Harold bumili ka ng alak. Alam mo namang hindi nawawala dito sa bahay na ito lalong lalo na pag may occasions.
Harold: Oh yes I know. Hehe Sige aalis muna ako.
Then he went outside para bumili. Naiwan si Rocel and Cherry making some slight decoration.
Cherry: *sigh* Alam mo bessy, kahit pa may pinagdadaanan ngayon si Akhi, we still have to celebrate his birthday.
Rocel: Kaya nga natin ginagawa ito eh. At least it would cheer him up and it will remind him that he still have us.
Cherry: Exactly! Haha let's get these puppies done before lunch. Nako ayaw ko pa naman ng panic kapag last minute na.
Rocel: That makes the two of us.
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Gab woke up and saw me sleeping beside him and holding his right hand. He's touched that I never left his side. He's now feeling better. Almost recovered. He cleared his throat loud enough to wake me up.
Gab: Ahem!
Akhi: Oh! Hey Gab. Good morning. How are you feeling?
Gab: A lot better.
Akhi: That's good to hear. Sige I'm just gonna go outside para bilhan ka ng makakain.
Gab: Actually, can you just cook for me?
Nabuhayan ako ng loob then I looked at him. Napansin nya yata so he said
Gab: Um, I'm still very upset. So don't think na bati na tayo. You chose to take care of me so I ask that you cook for me.
I just smiled at him but still looking sad and said
Akhi: Okay Gab. Whatever you wish.
Lumabas ako at namili ng mga ingredients then I went back para magluto. Sa kwarto naman si Gab ay nag iisip.
Gab: I still can't forgive you Akhi. I love you but it was too much. It feels like being stabbed a hundred times in the back. I still miss us the way we were... But this is the end for us.
Then he sighed and closed his eyes. I opened the door and brought the food. Susubuan ko sana sya pero ayaw nya.
Gab: Just give it to me. I can eat by myself.
Hindi na ako sumagot. Tumango nalang ako at iniabot sa kanya ang food tray. Kumain syang mag isa hanggang sa maubos nya. After he finished itinabi ko na ang tray then I cried once again. I remembered today was my birthday. Pero hindi kami magkabati.
Gab: Why are you crying?
Akhi: Gab, do you really have to stay here?
Gab: It isn't easy for me Akhi but this is the only way I could get over you.
I cried so hard hearing that from him.
Akhi: So wala na talagang chance na magkabalikan tayo?
He sighed and then looked out the window. Silently his tears started flowing.
Akhi: I see. *sniff* if that is what you really want. Wala na akong magagawa.
we remained like that for a moment then I spoke.
Akhi: Gab, even if we're not coming back together, pwede bang bumalik ka na sa bahay please? *crying* Napaka lungkot ng bahay kung pati ikaw mawawala.
Gab: I can't...
I pleaded in front of him, sobbing and crying.
Akhi: Please? huhuhu Kahit para kina Rocel at Harold nalang. I don't mind if you're not coming back just for me... just please...?
Hindi nya ako pinapansin at nakatingin lang sya sa bintana. I reached for his hand and held it close to my lips. I kissed it then pleaded again.
Akhi: Please....?
My tears are flowing none stop as I said that. He sighed and then spoke
Gab: Akhi, just go. I'm alright now. You can leave.
Akhi: Gab plea-
Then he glared at me and yelled
Gab: Just go!!!!!!
tinulak nya ang kamay kong nakahawak sa kamay nya. I cried so hard as I stood up looking at him and left. I went out of the house and hailed a taxi. Before I got in, lumingon ako sa bintana nya. He was just looking back at me. Still in tears I got in. He's left in his room sitting up with his back rested in the headboard of his bed supported by pillows. He cried out loud after the taxi left. Then after a while he calmed down. There was an alarm notification and it said "surprise birthday party for Akhi".
Gab: *sigh* I didn't even remember that it is his birthday today and I hurt him like that.
He just sighed and remained there looking out the window.
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*At home*
Cherry: Okay everyone pagpasok na pagpasok ni Akhi, we're gonna give him a very warm welcome and say "Surprise!" yung may energy ha?
Celine: Lyssa how do I look?
Alyssa: Honestly, pabida itsura mo Celine. Parang ikaw ang magbi-birthday.
Celine: Nakakahiya naman sa red dress mo diba? Masyado 'to.
Mackhoy: Tama na yan girls haha
Alyssa: Okay lang ba na ininvite namin si Andrew?
Harold: Okay lang. mas marami, mas masaya since ang dami nating pagkain. I invited some of my friends at the gym din pero mamaya pa sila. I wanted this to begin na intimate yung feeling na maihahatid kay Akhi.
Rocel: I also invited my band.
Cherry: Wait isn't he the married guy you were telling me yesterday by the phone Alyssa?
Alyssa: Ah hehe yes. But please let's not go into details about that especially in front of him.
Cherry: Ah okay. I was just wondering why the wife isn't here.
Andrew: She wouldn't come. I was convincing her but she's busy.
Cherry: I see.
Looking out in the window Rocel exclaimed.
Rocel: Oh my! He's here!!! Pwesto na guys!
I arrived at the house. Pumasok na ako and as I opened the door
Everyone: Surprise!!!!!! Happy Birthday Akhi!!!!!
With smiles on their faces they greeted me with enthusiasm.
I was so touched. Despite what happened with me and Gab earlier nakakagaan sa loob ang surprise na ginawa nila. It reminds me that no matter what happens I still have my friends behind me. I cried and thanked them heartily.
Akhi: Thankyou guys! huhuhu
We got into a group hug and then Cherry spoke
Cherry: Bessy we've got your back always. Andito kaming lahat mga kaibigan mo para sa'yo.
Rocel: To comfort you.
Harold: To protect you.
Mackhoy: To be the shoulder you could cry on.
Alyssa: and give you laughter paminsan minsan.
Celine: Kahit medyo corny.
Andrew: I'm just here to join but hey, I learn fast.
They all laughed at Andrew's remark.
Matapos ang madamdaming group hug the other guests have arrived then pumunta na sa dining area sila Alyssa, Celine at Andrew para mag distribute ng plates. Si Mackhoy naman ang nag a-accommodate ng mga bisita while Harold was setting up the videoke and sound system. Nakatayo lang kami nila Rocel and Cherry talking to some guests then suddenly.... Natahimik sila... They were all looking behind me... somebody arrived... pagtalikod ko, it was Gab! When I saw him I cried my heart out! I just stood there crying at lumapit sya sakin.
Gab: Happy Birthday Akhi.
Iniabot nya sakin ang regalo nya.
Akhi: Thank you Gab.
Gab: Sorry about earlier.
Akhi: I understand.
Gab: I just want you to know na babalik na ulit ako dito. But we're not getting back together.
I closed my eyes for a moment then opened it again looking at him.
Akhi: Well, perhaps we can be friends?
Gab: Fair enough.
Akhi: That's a start.
We both smiled at each other then we embraced. Matapos naming magyakap my gaze followed him as he walked into the crowd. I was thinking to myself nalang
Akhi: It's alright kung hindi na magiging tayo. Sapat na sakin ang makasama ka. That way it would be less painful.
Ibubulong ko nalang ito sa hangin.....
I love you Gab....
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